A senior Taliban commander named Adnan Rashid says in an open letter that he feels kind of bad about the attempted assassination attempt on Malala Yousafzai, the teenage crusader for women’s education who gained worldwide fame after surviving a shot to the head while boarding a school bus last October. While Rashid refuses to denounce the attack on Yousafzai — “he would not discuss whether the Taliban’s murder bid was ‘correct or wrong’ or whether Malala ‘deserved to be killed or not,’” NBC News reports — he does admit that he found it “shocking” and wishes “it [had] never happened.” Now that everyone has buried the hatchet, Rashid thinks Yousafzai should leave England, where she’s been living, and return to Pakistan, to “study and learn the book of Allah,” and definitely not so the Taliban can try to kill her again.